Amid Shortages, a Surplus of Hope
By RYU MURAKAMI
I SET out from my home in the port city of Yokohama early in the afternoon last Friday, and shortly before 3 p.m. I checked into my hotel in the Shinjuku neighborhood of Tokyo. I usually spend three or four days a week there to write, gather material and take care of other business.
The earthquake hit just as I entered my room. Thinking I might end up trapped beneath rubble, I grabbed a container of water, a carton of cookies and a bottle of brandy and dived beneath the sturdily built writing desk. Now that I think about it, I don’t suppose there would have been time to savor a last taste of brandy if the 30-story hotel had fallen down around me. But taking even this much of a countermeasure kept sheer panic at bay.
Before long an emergency announcement came over the P.A. system: “This hotel is constructed to be absolutely earthquake-proof. There is no danger of the building collapsing. Please do not attempt to leave the hotel.” This was repeated several times. At first I wondered if it was true. Wasn’t the management merely trying to keep people calm?
And it was then that, without really thinking about it, I adopted my fundamental stance toward this disaster: For the present, at least, I would trust the words of people and organizations with better information and more knowledge of the situation than I. I decided to believe the building wouldn’t fall. And it didn’t.
The Japanese are often said to abide faithfully by the rules of the “group” and to be adept at forming cooperative systems in the face of great adversity. That would be hard to deny today. Valiant rescue and relief efforts continue nonstop, and no looting has been reported.
Away from the eyes of the group, however, we also have a tendency to behave egoistically — almost as if in rebellion. And we are experiencing that too: Necessities like rice and water and bread have disappeared from supermarkets and convenience stores. Gas stations are out of fuel. There is panic buying and hoarding. Loyalty to the group is being tested.
At present, though, our greatest concern is the crisis at the nuclear reactors in Fukushima. There is a mass of confused and conflicting information. Some say the situation is worse than Three Mile Island, but not as bad as Chernobyl; others say that winds carrying radioactive iodine are headed for Tokyo, and that everyone should remain indoors and eat lots of kelp, which contains plenty of safe iodine, which helps prevent the absorbtion of the radioactive element. An American friend advised me to flee to western Japan.
Some people are leaving Tokyo, but most remain. “I have to work,” some say. “I have my friends here, and my pets.” Others reason, “Even if it becomes a Chernobyl-class catastrophe, Fukushima is 170 miles from Tokyo.”
My parents are in western Japan, in Kyushu, but I don’t plan to flee there. I want to remain here, side by side with my family and friends and all the victims of the disaster. I want to somehow lend them courage, just as they are lending courage to me.
And, for now, I want to continue the stance I took in my hotel room: I will trust the words of better-informed people and organizations, especially scientists, doctors and engineers whom I read online. Their opinions and judgments do not receive wide news coverage. But the information is objective and accurate, and I trust it more than anything else I hear.
Ten years ago I wrote a novel in which a middle-school student, delivering a speech before Parliament, says: “This country has everything. You can find whatever you want here. The only thing you can’t find is hope.”
One might say the opposite today: evacuation centers are facing serious shortages of food, water and medicine; there are shortages of goods and power in the Tokyo area as well. Our way of life is threatened, and the government and utility companies have not responded adequately.
But for all we’ve lost, hope is in fact one thing we Japanese have regained. The great earthquake and tsunami have robbed us of many lives and resources. But we who were so intoxicated with our own prosperity have once again planted the seed of hope. So I choose to believe.
oh yuri......this is such a good article.......thank you for posting, it really helps.........i know you have been in touch with your parents and siblings, and good to know all are ok.........my heart still aches for the people sitting in shelters, or still alive under all the debris......knowing that they are too buried to be found.......i ache for those whose houses got washed away, along with loved ones and pets........i cant imagine the misery they must be enduring now.......did you get the little red suit i sent?......im wondering now if it was large enough.......your beautiful boy has grown so big so fast, and what a blessing that he is soooooo healthy; thanks to the wonderful parenting he is getting........i envy jay and rita for being close enough to come and hold and hug occasionally;
ReplyDeleteblessings to you and silas, and thanks again for doing this great blog; i almost forgot about it........glad rita reminded me......LOVE AND HUGS
sally
Hey Yuri-san and Silas,
ReplyDeleteI took time to think about things I can do for japan, then I decided to go back to japan for a while. I'm in brazil now and will leave here tomorrow morning for Portland. I'm planning to stay there for four days and will head to tokyo. Hope to see you guys and your new family in portland! dice
hi there.......me again.........silas and yuri........as i watch the ongoing distressing news from japan, im wondering what your pregnant sister is thinking about......i think rita told me that your sis was preggers.......anyway, please know you and your family are in my thoughts every day.........im anxious to get to the west coast, and will look forward to seeing you and meeting baby milo.......love and hugs
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